Don't Listen To Me, Listen

Introducing...Mark's Mom!

2006-07-13T02:48:28Z

LockMM: duh
LockMM: dur
LockMM: you're not paying attention to me!
LockMM: you dont luff me...
xforgotenxonex: Not Mark
LockMM: o
LockMM: who is this?
xforgotenxonex: He is in the living room watching Pirates of the Carribean
xforgotenxonex: MOM
LockMM: hello mom
xforgotenxonex: hello
xforgotenxonex: who is this
LockMM: michelle
LockMM: the love of mark's life
xforgotenxonex: hi michelle
LockMM: its nice to meet you
LockMM: sorry to bother
xforgotenxonex: I was going to name mark's sister michelle
xforgotenxonex: nice to meet you too no bother
xforgotenxonex: then i would have 3 children with the first names starting with m
LockMM: awww
xforgotenxonex: Michael Michelle and Mark
xforgotenxonex: but alas I named her Becky
LockMM: its alright, michelle is a name to live up too
LockMM: rebecca is more classic
xforgotenxonex: ha ha
xforgotenxonex: yeah she goes by Rebecca now that she's is grad school
LockMM: my mom wanted to name me mikayla
xforgotenxonex: we still call her becky
LockMM: and my dad wanted to name me london
xforgotenxonex: i like that it has a ethnic ring to it
LockMM: so they picked michelle, but michelle the french form of mikayle
xforgotenxonex: London huh??
LockMM: so my mom really won
xforgotenxonex: cool
xforgotenxonex: mom should win she carried you for 9 months
LockMM: yup and my sister was going to be cyanne
LockMM: but she ended up as alica
xforgotenxonex: dad just had fun putting you there ha ha
LockMM: hahaha
xforgotenxonex: yep now you know where mark gets his humor
LockMM: well, mom said she wanted to name me michelle for my dad's father
LockMM: no he doesnt
LockMM: you're actually funny
xforgotenxonex: i'm going to tellllllllllllllll
LockMM: tattle tale!
LockMM: ill deny it in the morning
xforgotenxonex: you're grandad??
xforgotenxonex: I've been called that before
LockMM: yup his name was loyld
xforgotenxonex: ok i'm not following
LockMM: his nickname during the war was Mike
xforgotenxonex: ohhhhhhhhhh
LockMM: yup
xforgotenxonex: how did they get Mike from Lloyd
LockMM: so we get to point c from point a via point b
LockMM: now thats a good question
xforgotenxonex: I've always like point b the best
xforgotenxonex: now why haven't you ever asked that question before
xforgotenxonex: b for bitchy that is hahahah
xforgotenxonex: a
LockMM: because my family is a bunch of storytellers
xforgotenxonex: liars?????
LockMM: and i dont have a day to give to a story
xforgotenxonex: oh
LockMM: we just like our tall tales!!!
xforgotenxonex: tall tales get in the way
xforgotenxonex: oops tails that is
LockMM: they make things more fun
LockMM: its alright, i wont tell
xforgotenxonex: good
xforgotenxonex: this is my mom\
xforgotenxonex: dammit
xforgotenxonex: he commandeered the key board
LockMM: does mark get his spelling from you? hes always correcting me
LockMM: awww split personalities!
xforgotenxonex: why of course I'm smart
xforgotenxonex: smarty pants that is
LockMM: does that mean you never wear jeans?
LockMM: always pants?
LockMM: if you were a skirt is it a medicore skirt?
LockMM: wear i mean
LockMM: o dear mark did away with you
xforgotenxonex: yep but I got it back
xforgotenxonex: i shooed him away
LockMM: yay!
xforgotenxonex: i only wear jean
LockMM: mom 1000 mark 0
xforgotenxonex: no skirts they are for sissies
LockMM: but youre a mom! moms wear dresses and aprons!
xforgotenxonex: not in this century
LockMM: yay for freedom!
LockMM: and the vote!
xforgotenxonex: i bring home the bacon fry it up in a pan and never never let my husband forget he's a man
xforgotenxonex: ok i'm probably dating myself with that one
xforgotenxonex: it was a commercial in the 70's
LockMM: do you take yourself out on dates?
LockMM: since you date yourself
xforgotenxonex: of course, i'm the only on worth dating
LockMM: haha punny
LockMM: you go mark's mom
xforgotenxonex: yeah and the vote too
xforgotenxonex: ok gotta go gotta get back to work
LockMM: i as well
xforgotenxonex: I'm invoicing customers so we can get some money
xforgotenxonex: byeeeeeeeeeeeeee
LockMM: i mean gotta go back to sex and the city then project runway
LockMM: bye mark's mom!

God Gave Me Red Eye, Erika's Aunt Gave Her Liquor

2006-07-01T23:33:54Z

Too Sly For You: Hey
LockMM: hollar
Too Sly For You: what's up?
LockMM: my eye is inflected!
Too Sly For You: inflected?
LockMM: its red
Too Sly For You: what happened?
LockMM: i wear my contacts too often and theyre not letting my eyes breathe
LockMM: which means i have to wear my glasses for a few days
Too Sly For You: did you give your eyes their inhalers?
LockMM: which means i have to get up eariler everyday to do my hair so i dont look like complete crap
LockMM: yes i did
Too Sly For You: well i wanted to see what all you were up to
LockMM: eatting popcorn
LockMM: you?
LockMM: hows summer camp?
Too Sly For You: interesting
Too Sly For You: as expectecd
Too Sly For You: i was going to ask if you wanted to hang out but my aunt just called me and asked me to take her to the airport
Too Sly For You: she has to be there at 4 am tomorrow
Too Sly For You: i was like um wow Eola
Too Sly For You: that's really early
Too Sly For You: but she's giving me liquor
Too Sly For You: so i think at the end of the day it all pans out
LockMM: damn
LockMM: what kind of liquor?
Too Sly For You: not sure yet
Too Sly For You: but i know i get to pick
Too Sly For You: lol
LockMM: awesome
Too Sly For You: seriously i was just about to ask you when she called
Too Sly For You: that's so weird lol
LockMM: haha
Too Sly For You: Family
Too Sly For You: gotta love t hem
LockMM: you dont want to see me anyways with the red eye
Too Sly For You: actually
Too Sly For You: yeah i do
Too Sly For You: I really do
Too Sly For You: I want to see if it's as gross as you make it sound lol
Too Sly For You: well what are you doing tomorrow?
LockMM: like i was with my friend when he noticed it....i was hoping it was something exciting like i popped a blood vessel due to an orgasim
LockMM: work
LockMM: sorry dude
Too Sly For You: but what time are you off of work?
Too Sly For You: midnight?
Too Sly For You: 9?
Too Sly For You: ...3?
Too Sly For You: 4:45?
Too Sly For You: i'm just shooting out random times here
Too Sly For You: feel free to stop me whenever
LockMM: stop haha
LockMM: i get off at 7:30
Too Sly For You: i told my aunt i might go back to her place or my other aunts place and fall asleep though
Too Sly For You: cuz um that's REALLY early to be getting up
LockMM: tis alright
Too Sly For You: 7:30...that's so early
LockMM: dude yea
Too Sly For You: we could...do...something
LockMM: i didnt even konw four was a time to get up....i stayed up to it once
Too Sly For You: yeah four is a crappy time to get up
LockMM: dude you ingored my sex story!
Too Sly For You: oh sorry lmao
Too Sly For You: i thought that was a metaphor
LockMM: no it was true!
Too Sly For You: oh
Too Sly For You: lmao well thats just funny then
LockMM: it was nice....do our business in a park on a blanket, underneath a bunch of trees while a lightning storm was going on....
Too Sly For You: that sounds scary to me lol
Too Sly For You: but *cough* very romantic
LockMM: and when its all done he turned to me and said what the fuck is worng with your eye!
LockMM: haha
Too Sly For You: maybe it was the rain
Too Sly For You: or maybe....God is punishing you
Too Sly For You: for your dirty deed
Too Sly For You: ...I like that last one
LockMM: probably...cause it wasnt raining
Too Sly For You: oh wait God just called me
Too Sly For You: he said that was totally the reason why
LockMM: but i was calling to him during it
LockMM: oh god oh god and he never answered
Too Sly For You: Oh that just pissed him off even more
LockMM: o ok
LockMM: i told him i was coming as well....do you think he knows i meant for dinner?
Too Sly For You: well if you did say that and you never showed up to dinner....
Too Sly For You: i'm sure he was even angrier
LockMM: well, i got held up there was a cock block i mean road block
Too Sly For You: *cough*
LockMM: whatever, it was good
LockMM: later
Too Sly For You: oh i was still walking around putting on my clothes
Too Sly For You: but yes yes....bye, I'll ttyl, yes? yes...yes in deed
LockMM: indeed

Falling Apart by Trust Company

2006-06-09T03:37:39Z

Falling Apart
Trust Company

I slipped away
further from you
trying to find what is real,
Youre somebody else
that I never knew,
and someone that I cant feel.

I shove it away
I keep it in me.
Is this what it takes to keep me alive?
So you take me and you break me,
and you see Im falling apart.
Complicate me and forsake me,
you push me out so far,
theres no more feeling.

I slipped away
closer to me
the only thing that is real.
Im falling behind
but now I can see
your absence helps me heal.

I shove it away
I keep it in me.
Is this what it takes to keep me alive?
So you take me and you break me,
and you see Im falling apart.
Complicate me and forsake me,
you push me out so far,
theres no more feeling.

Spread, Spread out.

So you take me and you break me,
and you see Im falling apart.
Complicate me and forsake me,
you push me out so far.
And you take me and you break me,
and you see Im falling apart.
Theres no more feeling.

Ugh Tired

2006-06-03T07:01:07Z

So I haven't had a day off from work for the past two weeks....thats nine to five everyday....

I've been up at the claire's club this past week because their manager is on vaction and a manager always needs to be there. On Monday I got time and a half...$12 an hour makes me happy.

Tonight I hit over time. I was suppose to get off work at five but the other Claire's Club manager that was suppose to relive me got into a car accident. The other other girl at work was my sales assoicate, who was only 16...you have to be 18 to close the store and you can't work there by yourself. So I got stuck pulling a double shift...On the plus side I hit overtime.

Still for chornic fatigue girl, doing 40+ hours a week every week plus three hourse of night class twice a week is starting to catch up...I'm a little worry that i'm going to burn out before school starts...le sigh...

On the plus side, I might be traveling to the mountains in Mid-July to vist casa de Cadance. In addition, I get the house to my house one weekend this month...house party prehaps?

I think I shall go past out now....my inosamia is kicking off again...

My New Pimp

2006-05-30T02:50:24Z

Too Sly For You: Are you hoooome?
LockMM: yes ma'ma
Auto response from Too Sly For You: Back from Jersey. Do you know you have to pay to go to the beach in Jersey? They should be happy people are going to Jersey!
Too Sly For You: yay!
LockMM: lol i love tht away message
Too Sly For You: I live in Purcellville now
Too Sly For You: isn't that exciting?
Too Sly For You: isn't that so retarded though? i was like seriously i can't believe i have to pay to get on the beach
LockMM: you like live in a new place every time i talk to you
Too Sly For You: that is so retarded
LockMM: haha
Too Sly For You: no i don't lol
Too Sly For You: i lived in my other house for what...6 years or something
LockMM: i need to go to a party and get retarded yo
Too Sly For You: oh man those sound like words from heaven
LockMM: there is a little Hell in Michelle bioych
Too Sly For You: really? wicked
LockMM: haha its in the name yo
LockMM: whats new?
Too Sly For You: um let's see i went to jersey with a friend for memorial day...and we hung out w/ people n' stuff
Too Sly For You: partied and whatever
Too Sly For You: and now i'm sitting on my bed thinking about how hungry i am
Too Sly For You: but there's only one place in pville to eat this late lol
LockMM: mcdonalds?
Too Sly For You: yes
Too Sly For You: lol
LockMM: if you stay up late enough you can get an egg mcmuffin
LockMM: that sounds pretty good right now
Too Sly For You: i had mc donalds for breakfast this morning
Too Sly For You: and i didn't even have to buy it lol
LockMM: what did you have to do for it? :wink:
Too Sly For You: nothing actually
Too Sly For You: crazy huh?
Too Sly For You: it's more like what did my friend have to do for it
Too Sly For You: where teh guy got us both breakfast lol
LockMM: i need to find me some of those guys lol
Too Sly For You: go to tech, they're all male whores there
Too Sly For You: it's ridiculous
LockMM: mmm and me being a slut this can only be win win!
Too Sly For You: for the guy sure lol
LockMM: as long as i get my egg mcmuffin
Too Sly For You: you know
Too Sly For You: they're not that expensive
Too Sly For You: lol
LockMM: then front me three dollars lol
Too Sly For You: dude
Too Sly For You: that's a lot of cash
Too Sly For You: lol
LockMM: exactly
LockMM: you can be my pimp
Too Sly For You: oh sweet

It's Summer, That Means Reading!

2006-05-16T02:01:08Z

First the Big News: I got a job!
I have set the bar for myself: this summer I must raise $5000 dollars. It breaks down like this:

$100 - Mom
$400 - Dad
$3000 - Room and Board
$600 - Little Gifts (if I take Twins)
$500 - extra money for the school year
$100 - Money to pay DZ stuff that pops up
I enjoy rounding up and I figure to get a cushion would be good as well, so $5000. I figure if I work 40 hours a week at about $10 dollars an hour for 13 thirteen weeks, I can do it. So this sounded like a pipe dream. No job was ever going to pay me that much.

Then I set out this morning to find a job. First store I walked into: The Icing. Next thing I walk out with? An Assiant Manager job, 40 hours a week, about $10 an hour maybe more. And she is willing to let me work weekends through out the school year and have me work breaks. If I work some weekends, that means I don't need all of the $5000 right now. I still want to get it, cause I like to hit my goals. But now I striving for my goal for fun and I'm not stressed out.

Second News: Summer Class
Not as fun as the work (I like to work, I just hate getting up to go to work). Anyways, I've decided to take my last two Spanishs at NOVA. All I have to do is get an override, but right now, I'm feeling pretty lucky. Also, I know my AST friend Lauren will be in the class (I believe...she lives in Centerville...I think Loudoun is the closest campus). Anyways, not exciting just news.

Now...

SUMMER READING!!!!!

In my haste to organize my room, I started making lists of books I own. I keep track of them at http://bibliophil.org/default.php . Not the most high tech. site but a very helpful one. Anyways, while listing my books that I owned, I saw that I owned over 125 books (and we're talking really over cause I didn't count my Baby-sitters Club, Sweet Valleys, etc that I have). However, out of all these books, I have about 60 or so that I have never read. So this summer is me trying to read as many of my books as possible between The Icing, Spanish, and free movies with Kyle (tee hee).

Anyways, I doubt anyone cares about what I read or don't read or what I think about what I read. Nor do I think a lot of people on my Friends List would even like my taste in reading (I doubt Mark is dying to read the Notebook). But I like to write reviews of things and if I want to do it for a living, might as well as pratice now!

A Great and Terrible Beauty By Bray, Libba
Abarat By Clive Barker
Abarat: Days of Magic, Nights of War By Clive Barker
Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl By Frank, Anne (Yes, I have never read this)
Artemis Fowl By Colfer, Eoin (I tried but got distracted by finals and such)
Autobiography of a Face By Grealy, Lucy (Read Truth & Beauty and wanted to see the other side)
Bad Seed By William March (I'm not sure how I ended up with this book...)
Blindness By Saramago, José (School Book I never read...)
Bonesetter's Daughter By Tan, Amy (One of my two Amy Tans for the summer)
Clockwork Orange By Burgess, Anthony
Confessions of Max Tivoli By Greer, Andrew Sean
Devil in the White City By Larson, Erik
Devil Wears Prada By Weisberger, Lauren (Must read before I see the movie)
Faces in the Water By Frame, Janet (another that was for a class)
Fahrenheit 451 By Bradbury, Ray (stolen from David...)
Falcondance By Amelia Atwater-Rhodes (third book in Atwater's series)
Fight Club By Chuck Palahniuk
Good Earth By Buck, Pearl S. (An Oprah's book club)
Heart Is a Lonely Hunter By McCullers, Carson (Oprah again)
House of Sand and Fog By Dubus III, Andre (Oprah)
Into the Land of the Unicorns By Coville, Bruce (First in a series of two)
Joy Luck Club By Tan, Amy (second amy tan)
Life of Pi By Martel, Yann
Little Friend By Tartt, Donna
Losing Gemma By Gardner, Katy
Memoirs of a Geisha By Golden, Arthur S.
Mere Christianity By Lewis, C. S.
Middlesex By Eugenides, Jeffrey
Mists of Avalon By Bradley, Marion Zimmer (Been wanting to read this for years)
Monkey By Wu, Ch'Eng-En (School novel again LOL)
Mystic River By Lehane, Dennis
Notebook By Sparks, Nicholas
Phantom Tollbooth By Juster, Norton
Photograph By Lively, Penelope
Please Don't Kill the Freshman By Trope, Zoe (she has an LJ I believe)
Prep By Curtis Sittenfeld
Probable Future By Hoffman, Alice
Prozac Nation By Wurtzel, Elizabeth
Reading Lolita in Tehran By Nafisi, Azar (I gave a book report based on the first 20 pages)
Red Tent By Diamant, Anita
Scarlet Letter By Hawthorne, Nathaniel
Shadowmancer By Taylor, G. P.
Sickened By Gregory, Julie
Snakecharm By Atwater-Rhodes, Amelia (Second in Atwater's series)
Stick Figure By Gottlieb, Lori
Teach Me By R.A. Nelson
The Truth About Forever By Sarah Dessen
Their Eyes Were Watching God By Hurston, Zora Neale
There and Back Again : An Actor's Tale By Astin, Sean
Time Traveler's Wife By Niffenegger, Audrey
Song Of The Wanderer By Coville, Bruce (Second Unicorn book)
We Were the Mulvaneys By Oates, Joyce Carol (Oprah)
When Rabbit Howls By Truddi Chase
Wrinkle in Time By L'Engle, Madeleine

Of course, we all know I can't stick to this. The whole point of the list is not to buy anymore books until I read the ones I have...well I didn't buy anymore books. But I go to this fab place called a libery and checked out books. So fun goal, read all these books before their due date: May 31st.

The Perfect Distance
Beauty
Girl 15, charming but insane
The Used-to-be IT girl
Pop Princess
Peaches
The Poisonwood Bible (my second attempt!)

Plus I must finsh up the two I'm currently reading: The Notebook Girls and the Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister

O well!

DZ Love and Mine!
Michelle
KM 535

29 RANDOM THINGS PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW ABOUT YOU

2006-05-14T05:25:03Z

*29 RANDOM THINGS PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW ABOUT YOU.*
1.	I'm afraid of sharks. I can't even look at pictures of them.
2.	I prefer to be by myself at parties and watch people interact
3.	I trained to ride horses in the Olympias...I was going to go into jumpers
4.	my back is crocked by 3 degrees...it use to be 7 but i wore a brace for a year. my mom had it removed so i didnt wear it for the second year
5.	because of the brace i spend a year being taken care of...i couldn't move
6.	i'm a very independent person
7.	i can not stand to be called retarded and have punched people...ok i got other people to punch them
8.	i rarely lie but when i do its really good
9.	i was always a sickly person...currently i have an illness that may go into remission one day
10.	it is hard for me to hate anyone and for me to find the bad in someone
11.	i prefer to snack through out the day rather than eat big meals
12.	i was enaged
13.	each new guy in my life is different from the last by a complete 180
14.	i bored easily
15.	i like to daydream stories in my head about what my friends are up too
16.	Wal-Mart is one of my favorite stores...i even buy clothing there
17.	I want to be an editor of a fashion magazine
18.	I want two daugthers, their names will be Skylar Marie and Laural Ann
19.	One of my nannies growing up was a Lakota and she would take me to her house on the reserve. my great grandmother was a Lakota and i enjoy learning about native american studies
20.	I have to pet dreams: a camp for siblings of special needs children to go to and met other children like them and I want to open an Equine rescue league
21.	I always smell good. I have the best hygenie ever
22.	people say i should be a business woman. im more creative than others give me credit for
23.	i will drop anything to help someone out
24.	i prefer quiet bars to loud night clubs
25.	i can't sing but i enjoy singing and i do it anyways
26.	I am a Delta Zeta and my Kappa Mu is 535. there have been 27 girls after me
27.	i want to swim with dolphins
28.	im empathic...i can always sense when something is wrong i just dont know how to deal with it
29.	i am very self aware of myself and my flaws...i just have no idea how to go about fixing them
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Taken From Pat...take five minutes of your boredom and fill it out

2006-05-12T18:38:12Z

1.Your Full Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band:
7. Kinky or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of LJ/facebook?

2. What song reminds you of me?

3. Would you have my back in a fight?

4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

5. What is your favorite memory of us?

6. Have we ever been drunk/stoned together?

7.Would you do me?

8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:

9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?

11. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?

12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?

13. Do you think I'm a good person?

14. Would you drive across country with me?

15. Do you think I'm attractive?

16. Are there ever times when you want to call me but don't?

17. If you could change anything about me, would you? what would it be?

18. What is the best advice you can give me?

19.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Licking Kittens and Telling Time

2006-05-12T01:17:51Z

LockMM: i heart you
xforgotenxonex: you would heart me
xforgotenxonex: and cats
xforgotenxonex: hearting cats is evil
LockMM: mew
LockMM: meow
LockMM: mew
xforgotenxonex: :'cries of pain!':
LockMM: kitty hearts you!
xforgotenxonex: oh, i'll kick that kitty
xforgotenxonex: bam pow, straight to the moon!
LockMM: you would lick my pussy
LockMM: o i thought you said lick not kick
xforgotenxonex: ...
xforgotenxonex: yah
xforgotenxonex: that was awkward
xforgotenxonex: and i got moist
xforgotenxonex: =)
LockMM: let us never speak of it again
xforgotenxonex: yes
LockMM: haha...moist
xforgotenxonex: or POW! right in the kisser!
LockMM: remember that time i told you to lick my pussy
LockMM: that was funny
xforgotenxonex: haha
xforgotenxonex: that was like five minutes ago!
LockMM: when did i teach you to tell time?

charmer_girl @ 2006-05-02T20:28:00

2006-05-03T00:29:14Z

I shall eventually write about this past weekend as well as post because it was AWESOME!

And Mark will write about it too, cause he had fun and he should write about times where he has fun!

Relay for Life

2006-04-09T17:55:23Z

So Relay for Life was this past Friday...4pm to 6am. That's a lot of walking. Shepherd raised over 38000 for cancer research! Delta Zeta it self raised 3,503.88. Thats about 113 per each girl!!! It's an unoffical competation, and we came in third.

It makes me happy though, to raise that much for a good cause. Both my grandmothers died from cancer and my dad is recently going through testing for it. It's probably nothing, which is why I'm not thinking about it...but still, I'm glad we can help, even if its just a little. Next year we'll raise even more!

Anyways, the best part about Relay is all the bonding the sorority goes through. When you start to lose it around 4 in the morning, the closeness sets in. Fun stuff. I love our New Memebers, they kept our spirits up.

Only a few more weeks until summer. I can't wait!!!!

My Side of the Story (aka the deleted comment)

2006-04-04T23:55:56Z

Michelle was not in the Room from 5-9 at night. In fact she was not in the room at all when it was in fact raining. So instead of blaming your problems on Michelle who had no control over it (and constantly closes the window anyways becaue she gets cold easily) prehaps you should look at yourself for constantly opening it.

As for not respecting your protery, I didn't have to pick up anything at all when the wind blew through the window you left open and knocked all your shit off the first time.

************************

Further more:

Since when am I responible for your stuff? Had it been actually raining when I was in the room, I would have closed the window. However, you can easily check the weather reports yourself. You're a big girl, learn to take responiblity.

And one more thing on not respecting protery: whose's hair dryer (half the time without asking) have you been using all year until Spring Break? Whose's side of the mirror?

My Prayer Needs Reposting

2006-04-04T18:22:23Z

I take comfort in the fake that I am not fake. I take comfort in the fact that I am real. I take comfort in the fact that I am loved by those that love me. I take comfort in the fact that I can see what is in front of me. I take comfort in the fact that I do not invent things. I take comfort in the fact that I have true friends and sisters that love me, who do not say one thing to me and another thing to another person.

I take comfort in the fact that I am a good person. I take comfort in the fact that I love my life. I take comfort in the fact that I am happy.

I take comfort in the fact that even though people I love are not happy, it is not my responisbitly to make them happy.

I Love My Life

2006-04-03T04:15:02Z

Thursday night Theta Xi filled Tony's with sand and had a beach party!!! Well, not filled as in all the way, but the dance floor was covered. It was awesome, i loved it. All the DZs were there cause we're awesome! Only problem is I came back with a $22 tab...where did it all go? I wasn't that drunk... Another problem was I didn't get to see someone as much as I would have liked...I don't know..

Friday night, I was bored and Cadance was bored. So I went over there and we played scrabble! Til like 3 in the morning and then just talked....until five...I just slept over in her roommate's bed. We're pregaming for the next day...the big slumber party!!!

On Saturday, a bunch of us (me, Cadance, Racheal Kelly, Tommy, Jess, Nicole, Nicole's brother BJ aka our groupie, Bethany, and Bethany's friend Ryan) went to Winchester to vist the grail of Gabs. Then we went to the Apple Blossom mall...which isnt a mall. Got eats, watched movies, and had a slumber party that night! Yes, with boys!

Sunday was spent watching Age Ice 2 with the family...Sunday night was spent catching up on homework...

Something to Brag About

2006-03-29T04:02:00Z

So we have a New Member chart, where all eleven of our New Members can cross off a name of a sister who they feel connected to. Besides their pledge mom, I was the only sister who had al eleven cross her off!!!! That made me so happy!!! I loved!

In other news, me and Cadance now have Spanish and possibly another class together so I don't have to worry about never seeing her!

So all in all, Delta Zeta is the love of my life!

Past Week

2006-03-27T02:33:23Z

The first week back after Spring Break is always the roughest....

On Monday I went to all my classes and had Sisterhood Dinner with DZ. I was upset cause not as many showed up as I would have liked. I love all my sisters so much. People get busy though...once things get back in the grove it will be great! Night class was long...it was hard to focus for some reasons. Me and Cadance went to get some food after class. I love her! Then I went to Karadoke...I got in at a decent time though...I don't sing...

On Tuesday...I slept in cause I dont have class until 5 on Tuesday and Thursday. Spanish was fun, dinner with Cadance again. I dont know what I'm going to do without her next semster...We'll see it each other but not as often as we do now! DZ meeting, went on for awhile. Shepherdstown was out of water, like the main line broke. I ended up going to Inwood to spend the night Kyle's. Another late night of staying up, this time watching movies....

Classes were canceled on Wednesday, so I slept in again. Kyle made me brunch in bed and we watched more movies and talked. I took a shower at his house, ah, cleaniness....Went back to Shepherd because he had stuff to do. I met up with Olivia, Racheal K., Bethany, Cadance, Dusty, and Zigler at El Ranchco. Much laughing and much fun! Then we went to see the Hills Have Eyes....Poor Dusty had to still next to me and listen me cry over the death of the animals. Good movie though! Then Bethany, her boy Robert took me to Altos with them, where we met up with Racheal, Zig, Olivia, Meg W., and Adam Miller. An Alumni, Mary, brought us two rounds of asskickers, which kicked my ass...I got hit on by old guys with hick teeth...I like bars, cause they're not as loud and you get to talk, which you dont always get in Tony's espically on Weds...Altos come with old guys though...

Thursday...Bethany's brother was in town, so a bunch of us DZs went to Tony's for Greek Night, to show him how to party! We pre-game the way other sororities party! I didn't get drunk this time, but I bought a couple of new girls (Ilene and Evie) butterly nipples and my future roomie Tommy a Rum and Coke! I got back at the dorm at a decent time, two. I then helped Nicole with her election article. It was fun...maybe I'll go into that. Then I just talked to Ali about stuff that has been stressing me out.

Friday was Big Sis Night!!!! It was so much! Everyone was happy with who they got as a Big sister. I'm looking forward to next year though....I want a Little so bad!!!! Then we went to Zigler's house and par-tee-ed! I drank enough to get a buzz but I think this was the first time I had so much fun pretty much sober!!!!!!

Life is just so good right now....There are some things that I wish were better but at least the troubles won't last long...I'm excited for summer! I need to find a really good job, I have to save up for Spring Break! We're thinking Cancun...Only six more weeks of the school year!!!

Help Stop Cancer!

2006-03-25T21:38:46Z

This year, cancer will strike more than 1.3 million Americans and take more than half a million lives. As friends and family, we can do something to save lives and help those already fighting this disease. That’s why I’m taking action against cancer by supporting the American Cancer Society's Relay For Life® of in Shepherdstown

Relay is an overnight event that unites our community in a common effort to support the American Cancer Society’s lifesaving mission to eliminate cancer as a major health problem. The Society works every day to prevent cancer and save lives by supporting groundbreaking research, affecting public policies that protect us from cancer, and educating people on how to prevent or detect cancer early. The Society helps people in our community who have cancer through its many programs and services. Together, we can help the American Cancer Society accelerate the progress toward a cancer-free future.

I hope you’ll be able to join us for this year’s event. Please click on the link below for more information, including details on the inspirational Survivors’ Lap and the moving Luminaria Ceremony. If you can’t join us, will you please visit the site and make a donation to support our efforts? Either way, you will make a real difference in the lives of people facing cancer – and in the lives of the people who love them. Thank you!

For state fundraising notices and the American Cancer Society’s privacy policy, please paste this link into your browser: http://www.cancer.org/docroot/SU/su_0.asp

charmer_girl @ 2006-03-06T01:06:00

2006-03-06T06:07:13Z

I'm 21 bitches!!!! Happy Birthday to me! I'm going to party like its my birthday, cause it is!!!

charmer_girl @ 2006-03-05T12:43:00

2006-03-05T17:43:48Z

Your Seduction Style: The Charismatic

You're beyond seductive, you're downright magnetic!

You life live and approach seduction on a grand scale.

You have an inner self confidence and energy that most people lack

It's these talents that make you seem extraordinary - and you truly are!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Eve 6: Think Twice - My Theme Song Thanks to Jenn

2006-02-28T04:51:06Z

When all is said and done
And dead does he love you
The way that I do
Beathing in lighting
Tonight's fighting
I feel the hurt so physical

Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around come around no more
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around no more

She spreads her love
She burns me up
I can't let go
I can't get out
I've said enough
Enough by now
I can't let go
I can't get out

Wait till the day you finally see
I've been here waiting patiently
Crossing my fingers and my t's
She cried on my shoulder begging please

Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around come around no more
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around no more

She spreads her love
She burns me up
I can't let go
I can't get out
I've said enough
Enough by now
I can't let go
I can't get out

What is it you really want
I'm tired of asking
You come wasted

When I showed up and he was there
I tried my best to grin and bear
And took the stairs but didn't stop at the street
And as we speak I'm going down

Cause she spread her love
And burnt me up
I can't let go
I can't get out
I've said enough
Enough by now
I can't let go
I can't get out

Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around come around no more
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around no more

Break

2006-02-08T05:17:46Z

Wow. Just wow.

Life is...

I don't know.

I don't use this all that often anymore, but i'm officaly announcing a break. A break form posting.

Cause I just got a lot of stuff I need to deal with, without expressing it to everyone else.

If you want to know, ask or steal my hand written diary. Just thinking about that.

Oh Mark

2006-02-03T22:17:30Z

LockMM: when are you coming?
xforgotenxonex: too sick
LockMM: i hate you
xforgotenxonex: and no money
LockMM: must i come nurse you to health?
xforgotenxonex: :'shrugs':
xforgotenxonex: if you want?
LockMM: blah
xforgotenxonex: god, i wanted to kill myself yesterday
LockMM: y?
xforgotenxonex: i was so sick that i wanted to die
xforgotenxonex: it sucked
xforgotenxonex: my father gave me the plague
xforgotenxonex: but today i seem a little better
LockMM: lol, plague
LockMM: you suck
LockMM: here, have some soup
xforgotenxonex: i had soup yesterday
LockMM: your mom had soup
xforgotenxonex: she sure did
xforgotenxonex: vibrator soup
xforgotenxonex: hah!
LockMM: lol
xforgotenxonex: yah, thats right, you laff at that like you like it!
LockMM: i hate you so much
xforgotenxonex: me too =(
LockMM: :'(
xforgotenxonex: yay!
LockMM: ;-)
LockMM: :-P
LockMM: =-O
LockMM: 8-)
xforgotenxonex: FACE!
LockMM: =-O
LockMM: i'm scared
xforgotenxonex: why?
LockMM: FACE!
xforgotenxonex: you take it!
xforgotenxonex: ooooo
LockMM: =-O
xforgotenxonex: thats my oh face
xforgotenxonex: you ooh!
xforgotenxonex: oooh!
xforgotenxonex: ooooooh!
LockMM: yea
LockMM: i bored now
xforgotenxonex: awww
xforgotenxonex: michelle bored?
LockMM: yea
xforgotenxonex: here, i'll give you a cucumber
xforgotenxonex: see, no more bordom!
LockMM: i hate you so much
LockMM: i dont want your swriled old cucumber!
xforgotenxonex: its a fresh one cucmber
xforgotenxonex: but it'd be considered a pickle after your done with it :'nods nods':
LockMM: i hate you so much
xforgotenxonex: haha!
xforgotenxonex: sooo funny!
LockMM: please die now
LockMM: take half the world with you
xforgotenxonex: if only that worked
LockMM: like the last plague
xforgotenxonex: yay!
xforgotenxonex: bubonic!
xforgotenxonex: yo
xforgotenxonex: kicking it old school
LockMM: death-tratuarl
LockMM: the formal is now May 31st
xforgotenxonex: eh?
LockMM: March 31st
LockMM: i mean
LockMM: my dance you ass!
xforgotenxonex: yah, but the eh? was dirested to the deat thingie
xforgotenxonex: and why then?
LockMM: cause it is!
LockMM: we're allowed to change dates
LockMM: so much hatered! :shakes fist:
xforgotenxonex: no huh!
xforgotenxonex: hatered?
xforgotenxonex: hatred makes since!
LockMM: you make cents
LockMM: with your ass!
xforgotenxonex: ....
xforgotenxonex: i don't get it
xforgotenxonex: aren't you supposed to be an english major?
LockMM: and you need did
xforgotenxonex: ...
LockMM: im suppose to be many things
xforgotenxonex: need did?
LockMM: hahaha
LockMM: i ruined michelles rep
LockMM: cause i hate her so much
LockMM: you suck!
xforgotenxonex: i am so confused
LockMM: your mom's confused
xforgotenxonex: i'm like a japanese schoolgirl whose not in a hentai film
LockMM: youre like a girl for other reasons
xforgotenxonex: my mom is confused...
xforgotenxonex: they took out her uterus and pop, there went her head
xforgotenxonex: i'm a girl!
xforgotenxonex: my dream come true!
xforgotenxonex: now i can go play with myself!
LockMM: :plays with your boobies:
LockMM: god, i hate you
LockMM: taking away my thoughts!
xforgotenxonex: i'm still confused
xforgotenxonex: and hungry
LockMM: then eat yourself
xforgotenxonex: i'm allergic to myself =(
xforgotenxonex: i hate you:-)
LockMM: thats not funny
LockMM: i am allergic to myself
LockMM: ass
LockMM: and now its making my skin fall off
xforgotenxonex: awww
xforgotenxonex: andthats why god hates you!
xforgotenxonex: you bore me!
LockMM: god loves me
LockMM: you are a boar
xforgotenxonex: i spell differently !
LockMM: der, i made a pun!
xforgotenxonex: i am glad you didn't bore me
xforgotenxonex: then you'd be my mother
xforgotenxonex: ewwww
LockMM: i gave birth to my husband?
xforgotenxonex: uuuuum
xforgotenxonex: thats incest
xforgotenxonex: and i will never marry thee!
LockMM: I hope you wont marry thee, for you are marrying me!
LockMM: i rhymed
xforgotenxonex: cut print gay!
LockMM: why do you hate yourself?
xforgotenxonex: i don't
LockMM: then dont call yourself gay
LockMM: fag
xforgotenxonex: i didn't, i called that rhyme gay
xforgotenxonex: gayey mc gay gay
xforgotenxonex: =p
LockMM: i hate you
xforgotenxonex: yay!
xforgotenxonex: more hate!
xforgotenxonex: it feeds me!
xforgotenxonex: it is neat!
LockMM: you suck
xforgotenxonex: i don't suck =(
LockMM: you suck me off
LockMM: o baby o baby o!
LockMM: ah, blinded!
xforgotenxonex: haha take that!
LockMM: you take it!
xforgotenxonex: my blinding fat whiteness, in your face!
LockMM: in the ass!
xforgotenxonex: nice
LockMM: thank you
xforgotenxonex: you suck!
xforgotenxonex: thate that!
LockMM: uh?
LockMM: what?
xforgotenxonex: ihave commandeered your insult and used it against you!
xforgotenxonex: take that!
LockMM: sure
LockMM: i hate you
xforgotenxonex: mwah!
xforgotenxonex is idle at 5:16:23 PM.

Sufjan Stevens "Dress Looks Nice On You

2006-01-29T17:34:37Z

I can see a lot of life in you.
I can see a lot of bright in you.
And I think the dress looks nice on you.
I can see a lot of life in you.

I can see a bed and make it too.
I can see a fireside turn blue.
And I can see the lot of life in you.
Yes, I can see a lot of life in you.

When the world looks back,
when the face looks after that,
I can see a lot of life in you.
Yes, I can see a lot of life in you.

I can see a lot of life in you.
I can see your bed and make it too.
And I think the dress looks nice on you.
Yes, I can see a lot of life in you.
I can see a lot of life in you.
Yes, I can see a lot of life in you

Sufjan Stevens "Dress Looks Nice On You"

Real Update

2006-01-21T03:27:11Z

So, school is going and going and going some more. Six classes. I can feel it piling up a bit. But I'm determained and Cadance is determained, to get a 3.3 this semster. That would bring my GPA to a 2.5. Right now, I'm just taking a breather before going right back to reading.

DZ is good. I'm a Rho Chi, which I'm not happy with. I'm not happy with some things, like how they turn out or are runned, but you can say that for everything you do. It's better than last year and it feels like it will be better than last semster. I'm no longer Historian but I am still Ways and Means Chair. I'm determained to do much better and to actually do it the way I want to do it. I'm not getting pushed into anything.

Speaking of activies, I walked into Holly Frye's office to give some ideas for Homecoming. She liked them so much, I am now Co-Chair of Homecoming. Holy shit.

Love life is going alright. I don't have anyone special but at least I'm not with anyone where I would be miserable. Besides, there's always Keith for funness.

There are a few guys I like though. One's a good friend who liked another friend. I don't see us working out, but we're closer and I like that. As the song goes, it's just a little crush.

The second guy is a friend of a friend. Lol, he shares a name with my late guinea pig.

And it seems as if Jeremy is back. This I don't understand. Like, after everything that happened between us, I tryed to distance myself. I saw that I like him and would have dated him. But on distance, he's not what I needed. So I wanted just a fuck buddy thing. But that wasn't working out for its own reasons. So I distance myself, cause I felt used. When you feel for someone who doesnt feel for you, just go and do your own thing for a while. And he didn't seem to mind. Like three months go by.

Then I see him at Tony's two Wednesday ago. (Wednesday the first week back.) And he was a drunk asshole. Like, he drapped himself all over me, demanding that we be cool, asking others to tell me that we should be cool, solicting their advice. Even Maria turned to me and said he was an ass to you then and hes being an ass right now. He kept making me hug him. Like, he was really upset that we're not friends anymore or something.

Today he knocked on the door and wanted to say Hi. I was either in class or at Wally World. He IMs me to tell me this that he just wanted to say Hi. Then he invites me to his party tonight and before I say anything, he says its a small party. The first night we were "together" I had told him I wasn't comfortable at big parties because I was raped at one. There's some caring obvisously.

This is what I don't understand. I didn't want to be his friend and he didn't want to be mine. Why else would we go three-four months without talking? He's never presonally invited me to a party, just me. I don't know, am I worring about nothing?

Give me advice!

DZ Love and Mine
Mayhem
KM 535

charmer_girl @ 2006-01-15T12:14:00

2006-01-15T17:14:35Z

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